Publication Date: 5/1/11 (Reprint)
"A tingle arced across my scalp. The floor tipped up at me and my body spiraled away. Then I was on the ceiling looking down, waiting to see what would happen next." Callie cuts herself. Never too deep, never enough to die. But enough to feel the pain. Enough to feel the scream inside. Now she's at Sea Pines, a "residential treatment facility" filled with girls struggling with problems of their own. Callie doesn't want to have anything to do with them. She doesn't want to have anything to do with anyone. She won''t even speak. But Callie can only stay silent for so long...
Callie is a young girl surrounded by pain. She feels responsible for the asthma attacks her brother suffers from. She thinks that these attacks are her fault and he wouldn't be sick if she was nicer. The pain Callie is suffering causes her to start cutting with many different objects. Now, she is in a treatment facility and refuses to talk. When she notices what the other girls are going through and how they are not focused on healing, she finally decides to take the step to start talking about her own problems. The talking Callie does makes her realize that she doesn't need to experience this pain and can choose to be healthy again.
I have never understood what makes a person feel as though they need to cut themselves. I've heard that it is for attention and I've heard it's for a release from pain. I think Callie's story has helped me understand a little what those who cut themselves may be going through and the help they need to get better. It was heartbreaking when Callie refused to talk and get help or help those around her, but when she finally decides to open up, take responsibility, and get the overall help she needs this book becomes so much more. It becomes a story of hope and survival.